My son, Sam Pablo took his own life in April. He was everything to me and I don't know if I will make it through this.  He didn't want to burden anybody with his troubles and he was trying to do everything right, but he was overwhelmed and he didn't reach out. I am devastated beyond words. He was my Booba, my Boobear, he was the light of my life and now I am tortured in darkness without him. Please reach out to anybody you think who may be struggling. I would give anything to have a chance to talk to Sam again and tell him it was okay, I would help him through anything. I am broken. I am sorry that I couldn't save him. I just want to be with him. He was sunshine, sweetness, kindness and the most loving person in the world. He struggled for years but we almost made it. He was so close, I was going to see him at Uni for his birthday, but I never got the chance. In an instance, my life was shattered and is over. I don't think I can live without him. 

Please hold close the ones nearest and dearest to you and ask them if they are doing okay. Ask them in person, so you can see into their eyes. He said he was okay over the phone and then he was gone. 

I am broken. I am so sorry I couldn't save him.

I love you Sam! I will see you soon my baby. X